While all the world leans into the shadows embracing the night, I refuse. Knowing how dark my world can already be, I want instead to celebrate life.
I disappoint myself again. Just when I think I’m strong enough my heart does a double take and drags me back under. I find myself staring up at the waters surface puzzled at how I am down here in the depths again. He has taken another hold on me. I desperately need to get free.
Lover, I’ll put on my best bedroom eyes for you, Hoping that you’ll fall in love with me again tonight. But if the hour is found late and our love is too I’ll let go of hope and I’ll give up this fight.
He used to write the most beautiful words for me now he writes them for someone else.I sit here watching him pour out his love and I endure it by myself. Although I knew it was very wrongit felt so nice to actually be seen.But his words really were a branding iron the marks theyContinue reading “New words”
I reconcile thoughts And steady my aching soul Knowing I am strong
I attempted to write out my heart but I saw yours instead. What I read there silenced every word I had ever found. How can I take up space on a page where yours also reside? I don’t compare, I just know that I’m squandering precious lines you could use for your masterpieces. Your wordsContinue reading “Your pages”
This is a heavy load– alone in a hospital room filled with drugs and doubts, struggling with pain and panic. Visitors not permitted. Yet, I am here for you right now. Ease the heavy load– Tell me what’s on your mind, unleash all your fears. Even as the drugs, wreak havoc in your mind, I’ll keep you safe as we talk. This is the heavyContinue reading “Heavy Load”
Your love is slowly winning me over inch by inch.Yet I will never give you the slightest hint that I am being moved. If you love me, I hope you’ll notice my i n f i n i t e s i m a l shifts towards you. Silently pleading that you will keep trying. There may be many obstacles in your way, my broken-downContinue reading “Winning me over”
Oh Girl, I know you’re only friends with me to get to him.I can see it in your fake smile and surface words.Don’t for a second think I don’t know or that I don’t mind. Sweetheart, it’s not that I want him, I love him in my own way, so i’ll do anything to protectContinue reading “Your jealous motivations”
I realise you don’t get the best of me, You get the embers of what’s left at the end of the day. Sadly, everyone else gets to see my smile, but you get to see my frustrated frown. I share my song and dances with others, while you get my early, exhausted bedtimes. Even strangersContinue reading “Give you the best”